Before I ask


I wish that for you I could be pure,
But for my past there is no cure.
I've made my mistakes, I take all the blame,
My heart is scarred from the pain of the shame.
For five days now I have been constantly haunted
By thoughts of you and things I have wanted.
Not of your body, but more of your mind,
For you see me now and your eyes are so kind.
And I want to be so clean in your eye,
But I know that with you I cannot lie.
So please, my redemption,watch what you ask,
for you might not like what's behind my mask.
Not that I have killed, or raped, or cheated,
But at every love-turn I am always defeated.
My meals of romance have mostly been garnish,
My wings are broken my halo's been tarnished.
I hope you have faith in my good intentions,
When my past comes to surface, please don't snap from the tension.
For over the years, I've become jaded,
By the store-bought-fad-pretty that is always paraded.
You alone took me by surprise,
With your golden curls and your piercing eyes.
I don't really know why you always smile,
It reminds me of the cheer of an innocent child.
And yet there is more, inside your head,
You're thinking things you have not said.
And so you remain a mystery,
Dare I ask you to be,
Something more for me?